• Angela

I Wish I knew then, What I know Now!

I never thought at age 48 I would find myself unemployed. Yes, it can happen to any of us at any time.

Loving on Mom

I never thought at age 48 I would find myself unemployed. Yes, it can happen to any of us at any time. I have been working since I was 15 years old, so now what am I supposed to do? After all who wants to start over again?  I have known this would be a possibility since late 2018. I have taken the time to do some soul searching to truly understand who I am and how I want to live the next chapter of my life.

I can say with conviction I am here to help women and to empower them to be prepared for what life my throw their way.  Don’t get me wrong, I love to help anyone, I just have a special place in my heart for women as I have witnessed firsthand how everything can change with one doctor’s visit. It really is true when someone says “ I wish I knew what I know now when I was younger” and the “could’ve, would’ve, should haves.”  These words echo in my mind every single day now. I try not to let them but they do. My Mother was ill most of her life. She fought with depression most of my childhood. After I was married and my son was born she found out she had MS. I simply cannot image wanting to do something and my body just not cooperating.

Thankfully she had a wonderful man in her life. He worked 2 jobs to take care of her and the bills when she stopped working and went on disability. It was a tough life, not how 2 people at their age should have to live. But they were doing it. April 2014 on my Mom’s birthday her significant other, Eddie was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. May 2014 her Mother passed away. She did not make it to her funeral because Eddie was so sick from treatment.

This was the beginning of a bad season. My Mom and Eddie were not married. They couldn’t be married so my Mom could receive the medical assistance for her $2000 a month medication for her MS. Eddie had a Will and it had exactly how he wanted my Mom to be taken care of. Well,  this is how fast things can change, his family comes to town and the Will is completely changed leaving my Mom’s life in their hands. Eddie died on February 2nd, 2015.  The family stopped paying on the house my Mother lived in and she was kicked out of her home of 18 years by the end of October. Did I mention her brother passed away in the middle of all of this?  

I look back on the day that we had to move my Mom out of her home to mine while she was waiting for an apartment to be available in a low income building that was probably the size of 1 and half rooms. At the time my son was still living at home and still wanted to live independently. This is one of those moments I revert to “if I would have, she could have”. The journey from that day to today is far from told.

I will continue taking you on my journey so you learn who I am, how I got here and the impact of watching my Mother’s struggles stirred the desire to make a difference. Until next time.

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